Till We Meet Again.

Can't wait for exams to end.

I hope my sleepless nights are a total worth it!

Its May!! I know it's gonna be a good month because I'll be relaxing and having fun! I'm soo excited!

Was really lazy to blog about anything anyone anymore. A week ago I was reading my past blog posts as I was wondering where my blogging motivation gone to, and I realized how funny and ridiculous those posts were. Especially those back 2 years ago. A little surprise, I've been blogging for 3 years plus!

I really Laugh Out Loud as I skim and scan through every post. It's really undeniably childish and naive. I was naive. Hahahaha. But anyway, I'm glad I kept a blog, it did act as a channel for me to express myself, same goes to my diary I had many years back. Writing these thoughts help me to better organize my emotions. Yea, too little of emotional intelligence back then. LOL.

Maybe I became uncomfortable of strangers or people I don't know to read my daily mumbles, or I became more conservative of exposing my personal life to public. Perhaps a private blog? But I doubt I'll consistently blog anymore. Or maybe I just thought that it is really useless to always report my daily activities because people might just be curious about our lives instead of really caring for the blogger. Wasn't too keen of being a lifestyle blogger but maybe a food and travel blog? Through Instagram I realize that what really attracts me are good food and traveling places. I really have passion for both of them. Teehee.

But anyway, I won't close this blog as it serves me for so long and it is full of good memories. 
To those that I've unintentionally hurt them through my posts, I'm sorry. (I doubt so XD) To those people who used to be an important part in my lives, I wish you all the best! Peace, ok? To those who reads my blog and still want constant updates from me, follow me on Instagram@suejeanlee!

Lastly, Thank you!


XOXO,

Sue Jean.

日记

心情懒懒的，一个星期的study break就快过了，我好像读什么都没有进脑袋里。

最近心情都有些莫名其妙地低落，或许是因为考试的压力吧。太久没用中文写部落格，每天读的都是英文business terms, 我几乎已经把中文一一地还给老师了。呵呵。

每天忙呀忙地，不知不觉时间过得超快的。这个学期就快过了，我真的好迫不及待呀！沙巴~~ 我来了！！！第一次和大学同学一起旅行， 真的非常期待！我要：穿美美，去沙滩，拍拍照！;)

Aih. Seriously, i need a break.

这个假期除了要旅行散心，我还要积极努力赚钱呢！已经停止做工有一年多了，我不想再继续那些无谓没用的promoter工作！但除了这些，我还能做什么呢？

除了没什么经验，聪明，称职，用功，有耐心，有爱心，负责人与漂亮的补习老师，谁要聘请我？？？我可是华语，英文，数学，科学 通杀哦！;)

好不容易，现在才有一些时间翻看以往在欧洲的照片，仔细看看每一张。啊，我真的真的开始想念巴黎了。回来将近一年了，现在才有一股很强的思念。唉，巴黎，你还好吗？

之前电脑坏了，拿去修理后，C drive 所有文件都没了。难过。其实，我只在乎那些照片。可能是注定的吧，一些回忆，就是非你忘记不可。把以往所有的回忆，不管是开心地，还是不开心地，全部忘掉吧！人只能往前走。

要记得把所有珍贵的照片save在 external hard disk 里。

感情事，一切顺利。不想再向任何人做任何的交代，只想平静地过我们俩的二人世界。他很好，非常体贴慷慨善良。感情最重要是找到和你配对的，两个人在一起时是开心的。

好吧，下次再会！

A quote from Marilyn Monroe:

“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.” 

Keep your head high, and smile =)

XOXO,

Sue Jean.

Au Revoir.

Its 3am. I can't believe I'm blogging at this hour, but yes.

Wondering why? lol. cause I'm burning the midnight oil.

It's coming to the end of the semester, and wtf one more 5% quiz? Aih. I really couldn't be bothered. When something inside tells me, 'just study la, this is the last quiz'; my brain just couldn't concentrate anymore. So I decided to blog!

As I was studying the whole day, or actually, to be precise is daydreaming the whole day; I looked into my photo albums on facebook; Yea, this is what happens when you on your lappie while studying, fb is irresistible! It's really been a while I look through my old pictures, especially those pics of Paris and other parts of Europe.

I am still very amazed with myself. lol. Not because of the beautiful sights of Europe (i mean it is indeed mesmerizing) I'm amazed of how brave I am and I am amazed by how naive I was back then.

Joining the SAP program wasn't in my plan at all initially. Something suddenly struck a chord in my head, and nudged me to do something different in my life. Believe it or not, I always grew up believing that I'll be a very cultured, intellectual and somewhat artistic woman. But no, circumstances and the environment and also because my blurness in me makes my self-esteem dropped drastically. Maybe I'm not like that after all. And yes, I'm really easily influenced.

So I decided to apply for this exchange program, all alone. I never thought that I'll meet people from my same country, considering that Paris isn't the usual hotspot for Msians to study abroad. I never thought much of traveling across Europe even though I hoped i had a chance. I just thought that, hmmm, maybe I'll learn something different from it. Maybe I can be exposed to different environments. And i wanna meet people from different parts of the world. So there I go, happily, absentmindedly and naively reached Paris, the city of love.

The events that happened during my stay in Paris, you can refer back to my older posts! haha. And yes, i did learn lots of things, knowledge that I know I cant learn when I'm here, memories that I'll cherish forever, and people I met from all walks of life. And I thank God, I'm grateful that I have some other Msian friends, Steven and Jeressa for accompanying me while I was there. Their presence were somehow heartwarming, because we're culturally similar in this foreign country. And I was lucky enough to have partners to travel around Europe before returning to Malaysia. Europe was indeed a historical region that I will never be bored of.

What I am trying to say is, I realized that, while looking back to the pictures, I was a different person. I can't really tell or describe, but maybe I felt that I've changed. I feel that, at this moment, I'm more secured and organized in my life, at least, I started to start knowing myself better. For the past 20 years, I am searching for my identity and still searching for my goal in life. I got myself into troubles, I got myself into relationships without really knowing what I want, I got myself into unnecessary emotional disturbance. But I guess, life is really not about the desired outcome but the process of it. I start to be more sensitive to my thoughts and emotions, and pay more attention to what I really want in life.

The only regret I have is, why can't I realize this earlier? But I guess everything happens for a reason. I have to accept what it is now and accept myself as who I am today. I guess searching for the direction of life requires time. And I'll keep exploring and exploring til the end.

I want to live my life, within my own control and I want to be the person that I initially wanted to be.

And, I think I've really grown up, a lil. =P

Last note, fuck it, 5%!


XOXO,

Sue Jean.

TGIF

Thank God It's Friday!

Every Friday, you can really feel the happiness surrounding us, because it's end of the weekend! That means no work but play! I'm sure everyone look forward to Fridays right? hehe.

Unfortunately not for me today. >.< Was supposed to play badminton every week of this day but menstrual cycle decided to hit me today. I've been eating a lot lately, so I guess 'burning fat' session must be delayed again >"<  #superhatepmswhatthehellpleasegoaway!

Yaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

I'm shouting with joy because finally, FINALLY, I can have some peace of mind, without having stress over tests and assignments. This semester is indeed a tough one for me. Technically, starting from mid February until this week, which is around 2 months, there's either exam/tests/quizzes or assignments coming continuously. I really need a break for my mind. I know maybe I'm too paranoid or too ganjiong over these things, but yea, they are important to me. heh. Thats why, I made myself so stressed up. >.< 

But, hard work did pay off =) Now I can rest temporarily until the finals. 

Am so looking forward to sem break and Sabah!! Yayyyy first time heading to the east coast! It's going to be fun fun fun fun!!!! =DDDDD

As you all may or may not know, I decided to chop my hair away!! hehe. Not all though, I just wanna get rid of those unhealthy ends, and change a new look! Was too busy to go to the usual salon I'd always go back Klang, so I settled at a salon in Pyramid called A-Saloon, which has a promotion of rm38 inclusive of wash and cut. 

Before.

Tadaaa. Though my curls are gone, but I'm very satisfied with this hairstyle! =D I think this hairstyle is kinda trendy right now, and I think it's Korean-inspired.. pretty??? please say it's pretty! there's only one answer okay?? haha.

Anyway, I posted this on Instagram: 

Sue Jean the cute girl! hahahahha!

Can you recognize me? I think I've changed a lot, but looking into the details, all the features are really me! (lol what the =.=) the same ears, same brows, unbalance eyes, teeth with holes between.. 

and I'M THE BOSS when I was young! hahaha.

Went to watch two romance movies lately: The Vow and Love. Love, as the name suggests, is talking about love stories that happened among them. I really like this show. 

I personally love a quote from this movie: 那个你看起来很幸福、无所求，像一个小女生。

When you're really in love, unconsciously you'll be like a little girl, with nothing to demand, because the another one, his presence with you, his love for you, is already enough. 

The Vow is based on true story, I find it kinda sad, and I must be thankful that I'm safe and sound always, can't imagine one day I'll totally forget my husband @@ that's terrible. And its touching when you see the husband trying hard to let his wife fall in love with him again, it's really a touching movie. =')

My current fav song is: Somebody that I used to know by Gotye and Give me all your love by Madonna feat LMFAO! heh.

Thoughts of the day: Everyday I'm grateful for what I have. And yea, I guess it's not something new, that I've got into a new relationship. All is well =). Maybe its true, after going through all this, you'll really know who really cares for you, and how a person that truly loves you will treat you. I can't find anything that I'm unhappy now. Even there is unhappy things, love will easily absorbs it away. 

I hope it is true love. And I know it is. 

Time to rest again. Until then.

Xoxo, 

Sue Jean.

Feel the true warmth.

Life is really perfect when you know you have friends that listens to you, stand up for you, gives advice and comfort, jokes everything about you, and yet still loves you for who you are.

I'm one of the fortunate ones to have a group of silly friends like this.

a BIG Thank you. I'm really blessed!

xxxxxxxxxxxx

Had a late birthday celebration for Khai Jian. =)

Loving the effect of this picture. Heeeeeee =P

Somehow i like this picture.

Love from the bottom of my heart.

PS: Not forgetting my friends from college and other great people I knew!!! <3

Found this interesting picture!

 "A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."

 XOXO.

March to the Sea.

Doing assignments and studying for tests basically becomes my daily routine.
My only break time is during weekends, which I really look forward to every week.
There are times when I really felt the urge to blog about the little things that happened everyday, but I just can't find the time because I rather rest and sleep to prepare for the next day.
Sigh. Shouldn't have took 5 subjects with four days of 8am classes!!!

Despite all the grumbles I have, I'm still a happy girl.
I didn't really know why, because life is just so simple now and yet I'm very contented and satisfied.
Classes everyday with the accompanying of assignments and tests; friends outing occasionally and family on the weekends; 
Maybe this is the simplicity that I've always seek all the while.
 
All is well. =)

"I wanna date you like I'm courting you, treat you like a princess,and love you like my wife".
 <3

Xoxo.

#JJ

If love is true, it never grows old. In fact, it grows young with the passage of time.

Sunshine after the rain :')

You are what I never knew I always wanted.